Unloveable

I'm not a great person for you to fall for.
Just ask the last guy.
Or the guy before him.
I might be a great person
I appreciate it if you think so
But from a distance.
Because, honestly?
I'm unloveable.
I don't mean to be
I wanna care about people
And show it in silly cute ways
Hell, even grand gestures
I wanna make you feel loved but I can't
Because I don't
Not in the way you'll eventually demand from me
You're cute and you're funny and you're smart
And your heart is bigger than my ego
And that should be enough
But somehow it never is.
Somehow, everyone who gets closer to me ends up sad
Or crazy
Or angry
Or disappointed
And they're always the bad guy
All I do is always excused
Because I never lead people on
I've told you I'm no good
I'm cold
Too cold
And I burn
Never in a cozy way
It's never Christmas in my heart.