I Would Have You

Maybe if I weren't like this
Don't know how to say, but if
If I didn't laugh for nothing
If I didn't talk so much
Without saying anything at all.

Don't know how to explain, but if my heart didn't shut my head
If I didn't lie when I'm nervous, just to get away from you
When all I want is a hug, but I wouldn't ask for it.
Maybe then I would have you.

If I didn't write songs instead of telling you how I feel
If I didn't use sarcasm when things start to become real
If I weren't conductive to accidents
If I didn't talk like I were the president
If my heart didn't fight because of only one inhabitant
If I didn't break things when I should fix them.
Maybe then I would have you.

People say different is good
But is weird ok too?
If I say it's love, is it all forgiven
Even if the apple is already bitten?

If I take a breath and count to three
Then tell you everything
Will everything be ok
Or will I just have spoken too much again?
Maybe if I knew what to do
Maybe then I would have you.

But if I weren't as I am
Then I wouldn't know who I would be
I wouldn't know what to do
Being like this is all I know.

Maybe if I changed I would have you
We could walk together somewhere North
But if I had you I wouldn't have myself
And that's more then I can support.